We all Start SOMEWHERE
I remember holding my very first plank after giving birth to the boys (first set of twins.) I remember it like it was yesterday. I was in the group fitness industry for almost 5 years at this point and I could NOT hold a plank -COULD not. It took everything in me to attend a class at the gym where I used to teach these ladies around me. Now, here I was on the other side struggling and embarrassed of how weak I was and how much I had gained.
Do you know what an awful feeling this was for me? A year prior I was teaching people how to hold planks and telling them “you can do anything for a minute” and now here I was. I could not hold a plank from my knees much less my toes.
Weighing in at over 235 pounds I was struggling. STRUGGLING BAD!! I was so pissed off at myself for letting it get this out of control during that first pregnancy. I mean, I gained 100 pounds!
Many reasons surround that weight gain. Most of them being me stopping my life completely for 9 months because I was SO afraid of ANYTHING happening to these babies. It took SO many years to get pregnant and I just did not want to do anything to harm them.
In reality I DID everything to harm them by sitting on my butt for 9 months an eating like s*it. I did too. I ate everything I wanted. Everything in sight. I gave up working out (which I LOVE and makes me who I am) but I gave it up. I gave up coffee. I gave up people. I gave up being around people. I was so uncomfortable with myself that I just didn’t even want to be around them. (NOTE: I was extremely happy to be pregnant just walking on eggshells afraid of anything going wrong for 9 months was incredibly isolating and depressing.)
I am telling you this because I TOO WAS there. I saw a mountain and had NO CLUE how to climb it. You know how I got to the top? I focused ONLY ON THE STEP AHEAD OF ME.
Each day you will get stronger. Each choice will get easier. I had MANY MANY "I give up" days. Many crying on the bed thinking...."WHAT IS THE POINT!!" I had days where I felt like it was not working. But, I NEVER EVER GAVE UP....... I pressed on and so can you.
" You will never fail unless you quit!" It does not matter how long it takes my friend as long as you get up each day and do your best.